Last night I sat in the dark, only the Christmas tree lights casting a reddish glow throughout the room, and I was overcome by a feeling of anxiety. What should have been a peaceful time turned stressful for me because as the clock ticked away, hands moving too quickly toward the midnight hour, I anticipated what was ahead of me after my slumber ~ the day job.
I had a nice, long weekend, which was unfortunately ruined by a nasty cold. When I could have been engaged and actively enjoying the last weekend of 2011 I was distracted by snot insomnia, a hacking cough and way too much fatigue. It just wasn’t fair, and now I’d have to go back to the busyness of working nine hours a day, unable to accomplish the things I would have done had I not been sick.
A list ran through my head of things I wanted and had to do. That’s when the anxiety kicked in. Too much to do! I must do this, I have to do that, I don’t want to do that other thing but if I don’t the world will come to a complete halt! Then an amazing thing happened. I thought to myself, so what if you don’t get to it all within the next 24, 48, or even 72 hours? Cat Stevens began singing in my head, telling me I could do what I want, the opportunity’s on.
I didn’t feel any happier about returning to work after what seemed to be a complete non-weekend, but the pressure to GET IT ALL DONE RIGHT THIS VERY MINUTE had dissipated. I can do what I want, and so can you. I decided to live low this week, because Cat Stevens said I can.
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