I know you’ve all experienced life’s ups and downs. Lately, it seems, my life has been nothing but downs and downs. At least that’s what my perception has been. Truly I have nothing to complain about, but you know how it is when your brain kind of melts away and you lose all the tools needed to help you cope with those downs? Maybe that just happens to me.
After a few especially trying weeks I finally went to see a doctor and was feeling empowered. Don’t ask why that made me feel empowered, but know I was feeling ever big and very adult-like for doing it. I was happily driving home from my appointment when I went to shift gears on my 1998 Saturn (nothing but a manual transmission for me) and she completely failed me. After fourteen years she decided to take leave of her service and left me stranded in the middle of the street, causing a minor traffic jam.
Dead. My beloved car was dead.* Of course by this time the empowerment I was feeling was taken over by that pesky anxiety I’ve been enduring. Husby was out of town and I had to deal with the situation all…by…myself. But guess what? I did it! With a little help from a phone call to Pinky (brother-in-law and really smart about all things car-related) I got a tow truck to come pick me and my car up and haul our sorry little selves back home.
Husby returned home that evening and we trashed all plans for the next day in order to go car shopping. Yay! More anxiety! My decision-making skills have been on a major tropical vacation lately so this task seemed especially daunting. Luckily Husby was with me and we didn’t encounter any high-pressure sales people on our joy test-riding adventure. Finally we settled on the car we both liked. Empowered again! Now I’m all that driving around in my new car, which looks like a space pod.
The Space Pod
Here’s the thing. It doesn’t matter what you think you can’t do because chances are pretty good you can if you take off your scardy pants and go for it. With the events of the past couple of weeks I’m feeling ready to take some chances, because right or wrong going out on a limb once in a while just makes you feel more alive.
* My wonderful little Saturn lost her life, but she became an organ doner. Her salvagable parts will go to other Saturns to prolong their lives. Yay!
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Great attitude! You might just as well go out on that limb because the limb will find you one way or another–at least that’s how my life works! 😉
So true, Lorna. So true.
Oh, and a beautiful new car! I hope this is the start of things balancing out for you. I hope the doctor visit was productive and helpful, too. Take care, my friend!
Thank you Cindy. Things are looking a little brighter for me lately. Driving around in a shiny new space pod has helped a lot!